mood

It seems like everyone is so focused and so on their track doing what they're doing. Just a feeling of nostalgia is always lingering on the mind. Like Pandora's box unlocked or something, just a feeling of uneasiness about. Just nothing seems right, everything seems kind of there but not really there. Head is at a constant trimpy mode. One day the sun is shining and twenty four hours later it's pouring like there's no tomorrow. I guess it's time to take out my umbrella, but by the time I actually locate my umbrella, it stops raining. And I happily prance out and find that it will be pouring on my head just a mere few hours later. They say life is full of surprises. Jigsaw puzzles in my head all day long. Basics in my heads all day long, I want to buy an old note pad to jot these ideas down and pretend that I am one of those important people that actually matters. Even if its not true, I can still act the part, right? Like the kind of people that orders a venti americano at starbucks with no sugar, and always get a window seat, with their blackberry sitting on the table, vibrating every now and then to demonstrate just how important they are. Oh, and the huge ass shades that's on the table, and a old note pad, where they jot down whatever that matters to them on a pile of alternative fashion magazines. Vogue is too bland for them. And their vintage bag is lounging like its the next cool thing in town. 

after the game

after the game, came a flock of blue birds

riding on the white horse towards the grey horizon

as if a glimpse of sunlight can be caught in a net made of straw

so bright and so pure

the off-white so beautiful in my memory

the sound of an old wretch playing the tattered violin

and the onlooking giraffe sipping espresso

lust has been unbuttoned,

after the game

-xion, april fourteenth, twenty-ten

fuel

fuel is motivation.

motivation is fuel.

motivation is staying up all night.

staying up all night is motivation.

staying up all night is coffee.

coffee is staying up all night.

coffee is constant thinking.

constant thinking is design.

design is me.

waste

Feels so helpless, how time is slowly leaking away. What am I doing, exactly?

whisper in the water

"There wont be an answer, let it be." This is my vision these days without glasses or contacts. I see the world blurry. It is strange, but so mesmerizing at the same time. It just gives me these whole new persepectives to everything. Its kind of like, I am constantly behind this dirty window. I even stabbed myself with my sewing needle today, it hurted like a bitch.

photographs

 

 

 Sometimes, I just want to drive on and on and on..

Until I reach somewhere, somewhere where I am satisfied, somewhere where I know I will thrive in.

I want to lie down on a beach. Now.

bye bye 2009

So 2009 is almost over, literally, in like a day. Seriously? This year has gone past in a blink of eye. It is so scary how time passes so fast now as you are getting older. I am getting older by the second. I am no longer the person I was in January. Anyway, 2009 had been a fabulous year, for the first time in my life, I was really doing what I love doing, and enjoying it, and discovering that I actually have a grasp on what I am doing. It feels really good. So 2010 is the mark of a new decade, and I will be 30 by 2020, which is scary and kind of far away.

Life, I want to hold on to you.

Life, I want to guide you.

Life, I want you to take me where I want to go.

Can you?

I hope this decision is a right one, and even if it is not, I will stick to it, because I cannot back down anymore. This is what I want, this is what I need and this is what I have to do.

New Year's Resolution:

1.Get a new job, in fashion.

2.Start producing denier & manera products and sell to local boutiques.

3.Polish sewing skills.

4.Expand blog and online network.

5.Get Ulysse.

6.Start a Birkin fund.

7.Live.

8.Love.

9.Laugh.

10.Be true to myself.

2009 was a great year, hope 2010 will be even better!

what to do

oh.

the pain of decision.

j'deteste.

hearts pound; let's go on an adventure in a hot air balloon

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hearts are pounding hard with the beats of a relaxing bossa nova song. A giraffe is playing a violin in the corner while a zebra is humming along. Millions of balloons, only in taupe, gold, turqoise, mustard yellow and wine red, are tied on gold chains to a vintage basket. Inside the baskets are never-ending egg, cucumber and ham sandwiches, some cranberry scones, some sugar cookies and lots and lots of earl grey. All china are pure white, with a hint of cream in them. The deer is taking images with the polaroid, while all the animals, three, to be exact are dressed properly in gingam shirts, a matching bow tie, a tailored jacket and some rolled shorts. And polka dotted socks with some huge doc martens. Pass a river, pass a mountain, soar over the cloud into the land of nowhere.

While humming.

While laughing.

While enjoying.

I want to go on an adventure.

the boy and his teddy bear and violin goes on an adventure

Fort Langley warms my heart. The smell, the sound, the feeling of the good old days. Sometimes, I just want to leave everything and go on an adventure to a far, far away land in a hot air balloon with a giraffe and some grilled cheese sandwiches.

Throw a colorful marble in the earth and a tree will reach the sky in an instant.

Collect clouds, put them in a cloud and watch them mingle and swim.

Watch unicorns and deers and ponies gallop happily through fields of long green grass.

The deep, mellow sound of a cello moaning in the background.

Ah, life.

puerile

Back in the days.

When we went to carnivals.

When we ate snow cones with strawberry sauce.

When we shot balloons to get that plush doll.

When we believed in Santa Claus.

When we believed in happily ever after.

When our imaginations take us on the wildest adventure possible.

Back in the days,

When everything was wonderful.

I think I have officially came up with a "mission statement" for denier & manera.

Just need to somehow state it in a more fashionable manner.

Anyway, last week of school. 88% done my evening dress and it is looking cute and lovely. Had to go through everything and pick out stuffs for the portfolio show on Tuesday, and it struck me how much I've grown over the past 10 months or so, it is beyond me.

Now, I am going to lie in bed, listen to Chopin's Nocturne in E flat Minor, and read Alice in the Wonderland.

Long, long ago, in a land far, far away, there was a boy.......

tis the season

So the first snow of this season fell today. Totally put me in the mood, going xmas shopping tomorrow! I can't wait!

Now, let's just indulge in some Hot Chocolate, blasted heater and some nice disney christmas songs!

Winner's my new best friend.

Oh, the joy when the package comes!

It's pretty amazing, ordering online, cheaper and free shipping and comes within a week.

The books I got from amazon.com are like at least $10 cheaper than Chapters, like each one of them. It's insane.

Anyway, I am now on amazon.com again, browsing and clicking away and looking for my newest babies.

What I ordered last time. The Satoralist is a book that I have always wanted. Just felt like it will be an inspiring read. Bringing Home the Birkin was so witty and so smart, I finished it in two nights, and now its laying peacefully on my bookshelf. Loved the book, Loved the story and Loved the Ups and Downs it brought me through. It really made me think, "Was all these really necessary? A birkin? A Croc? Who cares.."

But nonetheless, I still want to get a 40cm Black (any leather) Birkin with Silver hardware before I turn 30. Its a long time goal for myself!

And the third book, Digital Fashion Illustration for Fashion Designers, I bought it hoping it would teach me something new about drawing flats, but it didn't. So I was kind of disappointed. I guess this is the downside to buying books online, you can't really see the content.

Anyway, so lately, I have developed a rather fondness for Winners. Before, I used to think that Winners was a cheap and trashy bargain store, but ever since I got my JPG jeans at Winners in January, my mind about this store has totally changed. Winners blew me away when I visited the Park Royal location last Sunday, they carried MARNI!

MARNI!! MARNI!! MARNI!!

My jaw literally stayed open as I fondled with the dresses and skirts they had there.

Again! MARNI! O-M-G! Marni in Vancouver, that is ridiculous, I haven't seen Marni in Holt Renfrew! It is kind of ironic, how Winners carry better clothes than Holt Renfrew. And each Marni dress retailed for about 899 each, which is a bargain!

Oh! And there were a bunch of Valentino LBDs, Emilio Pucci dresses and some other brands here and there.

For men, there were lots of Perry Ellis, Calvin Klein, Tommy Hilfiger, you know, the usual. But my eyes widened when I found a Karl Lagerfeld trouser and white shirt. Like seriously? Karl Lagerfeld hidden in between Point Zero and Adidas, I nearly shedded a tear! But unfortunately, they were not my size, or I would've bought it! The trousers were like $120, and the shirt was like $110. I, however, did score a pair of Alexander McQueen jeans. YAY ME!

Oh! and there were some Costume National blazers and a couple of Valentino suits. All for under $1000. It's ridiculous. Like seriously. Winners?

So today, I decided to try my luck at another Winner's location which my aunt is working at (employee's discount = 20% off, not much, but better than nothing). So I walked in, it's like the usual Winner's. Messy, check. Crowded with unfashionable housewives, check. Mounds and mounds of clothing on the floor, check. Seriously, it's more fun than hunting in a vintage store!

So I found this pair of Calvin Klein 100% Wool Trousers for only $39 cdn, like SERIOUSLY? Tried it on, it's a tad bit tight, but I bought it anyways! So now, I am officially on a diet.

(excuse the bad picture!)

Also, found a Buffalo trench coat in wool for $52, but didn't get it because it was a tad bit too big, I don't like jackets that fit bigger.

Then I ventured into the undergarments section, hoping to find some stuffs. There they were, hidden in the pile of boxers and briefs, I found two pair of Calvin Klein 365 boxers and a pair of ____ (I don't know what brand it is, but they were hot pink) briefs. They were $8 each. Cheaper than Old Navy and Gap. Grabbed them, and paid for them.

It's hard for even myself to believe what I am about to say, but Winner's is now one of my "usual" shopping locations alongside H&M, like WTF!?

Oh! And received this Issay Miyake L'eau de Toilette set from bb earlier this week. I love the scent, and I love how long lasting it is. Thank you! And now, I have something else to put on other than my "overused" Terre des Hermes.

And now, I want to go back to Winner's again!

Vancouver through my lenses

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Actually, Vancouver is a beautiful place.